Goodbye.....

I am sad to report that we recently lost a beautiful, vibrant, independent, funny, sassy, opinionated and loving woman in our family, Mary Lee Martin-my grandma.

Luckily for me, I was able to visit with her and spend time with her talking and laughing several months before she passed.  And another time during her 90th birthday celebration.  She was ready, we think, to go be with Grandma Martin who had left for heaven 11 years ago.  So we are all happy, and sad at the same time.

She lived a long life, and most of that time she was independent living on her own.  The last few years were the only time she needed real help, and she had her gorgeous and generous daughters, my lovely aunts help her with the transition.

My grandma would have loved seeing everyone together, getting along.  Some of us, and I mean even some of us that do not live to far apart here in Florida had not seen each other in several years.  In her death she brought us together, if at least for one last time.  In her death I learned to bury past hurts and my pride and look beyond that-for which I hope it helps my relationship with her son, my father.

I am all for my own betterment and for the betterment of relationships that are here to stay, or for long term relationships.  I am all for learning and she taught me this.  I wish she was here to talk to though, and I have regrets for not calling and speaking to her more.

I have not fully cried yet, and I have not fully said goodbye yet.  I guess I will in my own time.  I tried hard to keep it together during my time with family as I didn't want to be a weepy mess if someone, like one of her children, needed me.  I hope she knew how much we all cared for her sweet self.

xoxo, Lela


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